Day 30 of Chrissie's Battle, May 18

It's really a strange feeling when I get butterflies, sweaty palms, and anxiety when I see that Chrissie's battle is coming to an end.  Only one more day.  What's really strange is that as I've been re-reading each post, it almost feels like Chrissie's still here, but this time I know the ending of the story, and I want to do anything in my power to stop it.  It's really strange, and I'm probably not making any sense.  I know Chrissie's been with Jesus for almost a year now, but right now, as I re-read each post daily, I almost feel like we're in that moment again.  Does anyone else feel that way?!?!

I would also love suggestions from you all about what we might be able to do on May 19, the day Chrissie went to live with Jesus.  I'm just not sure what to do on that day.  We've never faced this before, and I've been thinking and praying, but I still haven't decided what we should do.

I've heard a variety of things from moms who lost their children.  Some do nothing on the day their child went to heaven, as it's the hardest day out of the whole year for them, and they just want to survive the day.  Others have released balloons, but I haven't gotten to visit with enough moms to get other ideas.

We're so busy planning and preparing for Chrissie's memorial benefit that coming up with something to do on the 19th has been set on the back burner.  We talked about going to the zoo, going to Natural Bridge Caverns, having a  picnic, going to the river, basically doing something together as a family, but we still haven't decided what to do.  Any suggestions?  I'd love to hear your thoughts! :-)

Day 30 of Chrissie's 31-day battle, May 18, 2010:  Post 1, Post 2, Post 3, Post 4 (Chrissie's sutures in her side, rant :-(, Post 5, Post 6 (pray for silent night :-(