Monday, July 25, 2011


"Let me be weighed in an even balance that God may know mine integrity".  Job 31:6 KJV

There are so many things in life that we must balance:  our time, our schedules, our meals...really, every aspect of our lives requires a delicate balance.  Some things can become obsessions  and addictions when left unbalanced.  The only thing I ever want to have an addiction to is my Savior, Jesus Christ.

I always have so many swirling messages in my brain, but so little time to even open my laptop, much less record my myriad of thoughts.  Balance.

I wish I had more time, yet, really, I don't wish for that.  Having more time would mean my life wasn't filled to the brim with children, family, serving Him.  Balance.

I love having many little treasures to care for.  Balance.

I love having many chores due to the many treasures I care for.  Balance.

I love life in a large family.  Balance.

I love my Abba Father and wish I could spend every waking moment in His Word, in deep Bible study, in uninterrupted prayer.  Balance.

I wish I had time to record our daily memories, to share our lives with others, to share God's messages, to share many things my King of Kings is teaching me.  Balance.

I wish I could do more to keep Chrissie's legacy alive.  I don't want to forget anything about her.  I want to remember her laugh, her smile, the feel of her hugs, the pinch of her fingers digging into my neck as she squeezed me tightly.  I wish I had every minute of every second of her time with us recorded.  Balance.

Sometimes I wish for a TV show to come in and document our lives for us, and then I wouldn't have the stress of wanting/trying to record it all myself (I always fail).  Yet, I don't really want to have strangers with cameras following us around and recording every little thing.  Surely we'd all dwell on the things we shouldn't have said, the things we shouldn't have done, etc.  That's not the stuff I want to record. :-)  (And, just for the record, I really don't want a TV show.  We were asked to participate in a few reality TV shows/documentaries, but I've never felt it was what God wanted.  Seems way too stressful.)  Balance.

So, that leaves me back at square one.  Balancing life in a large family, yet trying to record it all, trying to remember the things He's teaching us along the way.  Trying to balance time with God, time with my hubby, time with the kids, time taking care of 1,001 daily duties.  And trying to just simply embrace that I will NEVER get even remotely close to conquering my ever-growing to-do list.  Balance.

I'd love to hear your suggestions of what helps you maintain balance in your life.  I want to please God.  I want to glorify Him.  I don't want to get tripped up in anything that causes me to be off balance.  Bossing my heart is helpful, reminding myself to let the Lord guide my steps instead of blazing my own trail.  Asking God to help me balance.

What works for you?  How do you maintain balance?

"A false balance is abomination to the Lord:  but a just weight is his delight."  Proverbs 11:1 KJV

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